Working Mama Pai

I was checking my old emails and came across a folder labelled "nice emails". These were emails from way back 2004. I did not know it still exists, for I once had this email address irretrievable. I don't know how i was able to get on it again. These emails were indeed nice. Most were forwarded emails and there is this one email that brings me back to my college days. It is one of the lovely emails I received. And I want to share this to you. And it goes: Untitled By: (Author) I sometimes feel my heart will burst from wanting you so much I can't explain in words of how I long to feel your touch There is no way I can convey this emptiness inside That seems to tear my soul to shreds as time goes swiftly by If I could merely hold you near for just a little while If I could simply talk with you or only see you smile To have you look into my eyes and wait to hear you say Something that would help me take all the pain away If I have to wait ...

I had my hair cut pixie last week. Most of my friends find it nice on me. I like my hair. And I'm proud of it. There are some reasons I cut it down in my own advantage.  1. I feel good about it. Few years back, I had my hair short. It was right before I got married. One thing I am sure of, is I feel good about it.   2. Time saving. Having to babysit in the morning and work at night with long hair is a pain in the butt. I don't have enough time to wash off my hair like I used to. I watched over my son and slept for only 3-4 hours a day, so taking so much time in the bathroom is not my thing now. I don't even have time to comb my hair.  3. For a change . I have had my long hair since 2008. At my age, with a toddler goofing around, a working mom with no baby-sitter,  I cannot tidy up my hair regardless of how many times I freshen up myself. (I look so old)  4. Hair bonds away! Having a long hair is pretty. Yes, it is. But only if you untie it all da...

There is something that a woman cannot thank enough to the Creator above - being blessed with a healthy baby. Now at ten months, my baby is active enough to make everyone giggle. He started to learn a lot of things like feeding himself by hand, since I do not give him yet his plate because he flips it over throw it. Drinking over glass is his master piece coz he used to drink over glass when he was few hours old from the hospital. Teeth? Well, he's got four and two. Now starting to learn to walk by himself as gutsy as he is, not minding if he falls or not. The other night, I was surprised to see him wave good-bye. And he is learning to sneak out of bed when its bed time, laughing his heart out when he knew that I noticed him trying to go to the floor which is a big NO-NO unless its play time. With food, he eats everything, but he loves vegetables and banana!

Two years ago, new year was boring. Same thing happens like going to church, drink some alcohol with friends and on the next day, back to work. It has become a routine since I started working. New Year Last year was special with a new life squirming inside me. I was on my 15th week when we celebrate the new year at my aunt's in Gorordo. Went home at two in the morning with a little scared heart, because of an old woman who did not left my aunt's house until i did so. Being pregnant here in the Philippines ain't easy when the old folk story is still alive especially those stories about pregnancy and witchcraft.  Hormones and such   The following months were getting more exciting, as I begin to feel my baby moved around my tummy, giving me tickles sometimes. I started my maternity leave first week of June, as it was hard for me to go to work with my biggest tummy. I can't manage to lean forward or even bend my body forward. Almost all of my body parts a...

Dear Babe, Its the first day of our 9th week. What is more special today also is it's my birthday. I used to hang around the clock before, waiting for the clock to tick at exactly 12am to greet myself happy birthday, but today I missed it. Because what I have been thinking is you, since the first day I knew you exists inside me. Last Friday when I went to the doctor to see you, I cannot express how happy was I when the doctor says, "there you are, tiny little baby". I thought of your Baba that time. It was sad that Baba was not with us since he has to work for us. It's my first time today that Baba is not around to greet me since we got married, but it did not matter, because I have you babe. Baba is very excited to see you as well. He was sad that he was not able to see you last friday. But soon babe, next time, Baba will. Be strong with Momma babe. You never know how happy we are to finally have you. We have been waiting for you for years babe. We cannot wait so see...

Dear Mom, I know we haven’t officially met yet but I thought I would say hi from inside your womb. I am not sure how I arrived, I just know that I am glad I am here. Though the place I am in is very dark, it is also very warm and comforting. There is not much to do here but I am constantly entertained by the sound of your voice. Oh, how I love the sound of your voice! Every time you talk, I feel safe. Every time you speak, I feel loved. I don’t understand everything you are saying yet – but I can’t wait to comprehend it. The best is your laugh. You don’t do it often and I have no idea what causes it but when it happens, it feels amazing. From all the muffled commotion I hear, I have a feeling that life is pretty stressful outside this womb. Listening to the tone of your conversations, I can tell you are scared. Your voice sounds tired. On the outside, everyone might think that you are doing ok but on the inside you are a wreck. I know. I live on the inside. I can feel ...